Sunday, July 26, 2009

Fear or Faith

Have you ever had the best intentions to post and life just gets away from you?! My hope is that you will just love me anyway.....

Thursday was the day where I had hope, but that hope would often get replaced with fear. I tried to hold my head up high and succeeded, only to have my head droop in memories and anxiety. An apostle once said, "Fear and faith cannot coexist in our hearts at the same time." I completely agree.

Thursday was the day where what I have been experiencing would become a reality. Either it would end with tears, or with another "hurdle crossed", as my honey said it.

You see Thursday we got to see this....


























You know what the best part was?! The heart was beating. Can I tell you what happened to my heart before the baby came into view? It stopped. I couldn't really see the screen but my husband could. When he said, "There's the heart beat", my heart literally jumped into life again as if it had received a defibrillator.

Thursday was the day where I saw a new little one. So what's it going to be for me? Fear or Faith. I hope for the latter.

17 comments:

raedene said...

Congrats!!!!! You're amazing! I don't know if I could overcome my fear and have faith... You're such a great example to me... Love you tons! I wish you all the best. xoxoxox

Annie Carie said...

Yay!! Congrats on your little peanut! And I pray you'll have the FAITH! love you :)

Kayla said...

oh, good luck. i'm sure this is going to be a difficult pregnancy for you, but i wish you the best. you are such an example of faith. i hope you survive the first trimester....and feel better soon

shereece said...

Best of news! Can you hear me cheering all the way in FC?

Jordan Family said...

becca, i am so thrilled to see that ultrasound. words cannot even express...we will, as always, keep you in our prayers. we love you!

Valerie said...

Triumph!

You did it! We love, love, love you. Call anytime... I am with you in spirit always, my bub.

Kristy Graff said...

congratulations!!! i don't know how you do it girl. you are truly an amazing person and i admire you. i'll be praying for you!

Our Family Happenings said...

Yippie! I am so happy for your family. I am so glad that you got to see your little baby heart beat..I know you were nervous, but you did it. You are in my prayers always and I do think you are an amazing person and mother! I know you will have some fear, but hopefully your faith will overcome it because you are a very faithful woman!

Amy said...

Isn't that little beating heart the greatest sight in the world. It's simply a miricle. No other words can describe it!
Congrats! You definantly have so much faith. I only wish I had an ounce of your faith!
I can't wait to meet your little one!!!

marenz said...

Faith, I say...FAITH!!! Congrats! You deserve a little bit of happiness in your day-to-day craziness we call life...miss you!

Lindsay said...

WHAT?! This is what I get for not checking blogs often enough!! I'm sorry I didn't say anything sooner...but I didn't know until today! Congratulations!!!! Let me know if you need anything!

Anonymous said...

I'm so happy for the both of you! Well, ALL of you! I understand the defribrillator comment. :)

Keep the faith, Uncle. This will work out beautifully.

Much love! xoxoxoxo

Kelly and Randall said...

Yay! I'm glad you posted a picture of the ultrasound! Even if he/she's still a little bean, it's always fun and exciting to see. Just... yay! :)

Linda said...

That is so wonderful!

Anonymous said...

oh Rebecca, sorry I am late to the news, but I am so happy for you! I pray for faith! and health for all.

Deanna peterson

ganelle said...

It looks just like you!!!

Congratulations to you all! I can only imagine the range of feelings. Faith girlfriend, faith.

Garity said...

Jumping up and down here in Mexico City just for you!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH! Reading this has completely turned an otherwise horrible week into a great one for me! I am so excited for you and can't wait to see her or him!